Pavlon
Loads of microthoughts in one coherent microblog.
Blog
05/13/2025
I'm 26 already, but I don't feel like it at all. People my age used to already have small children, paying their mortgage and working on their career. I haven't even started yet. On the other note, after spending the last three months learning to do programming and reading books, I found out I actually want to get better at playing guitar, meditating, going to the gym and writing/translating books. This is my life purpose now and as cliché as it sounds, maybe journey is the destination
05/08/2025
Today marks the end of the WWII. Hands down, there will never be another brave generation as the one who fought in war.
Truth be told, the only thing I did in my life was playing video games and studying dilligently. None of the things will truly prepare you for the real life. But that makes it all the more purposeful. I have always struggled with finding my purpose, so I guess I'll have to reread Dr. Frankl's book to get back on track. Maybe figuring out what I want from my life is a good foundation.
05/07/2025
I got back on track with the Udemy Web Development Course and now I'm doing JavaScript. Other than that, still no job prospects. But I might be getting close this time...
05/05/2025
After a short break of indulging in alcohol and porn I ask myself: is it really worth it? Since I'm still unemployed I don't even feel like searching for a job anymore. But I am still going to the gym at least once a week.
05/01/2025
I read three books in April. The Fellowship of the Ring, Eugene Onegin and Othello. I think I even improved my reading a bit because of meditation. And mainly because I focused on the process of reading and not reading in order to have a book finished and brag about it.
04/30/2025
James Clear writes about the Atomic Habits in his book of the same name. Basically our life boils down to the habits and the systems that we create. Even if we improve only a bit every day, in the long run we improve a lot. So, out of all the habits I want to return to, I think meditation is a clear winner as far as the foundation is concerned. Meditate everyday for at least 5 minutes, that is the goal.
04/29/2025
Today I found out that I no longer enjoy World of Warcraft. The reason might shock you. I think I never really liked the game in the first place. I never lived through that moment and I only picked it up because of the hype. I thought I would make some friends there, but it only left me feeling more isolated from the world.
04/28/2025
Choose your friends wisely. They will either help you accomplish things you've always dreamt of or bring you down. So far I only had the luck on the second kind of friendships.